"And I will go to my grave, with the life that I gave, not just some melody line, on a radio wave it dissapates" -John Mayer

I'll give you five guesses as to the big change in my life this week...there might be more than one...I think...

"...You got me running around..." -Mariah Carey "Circles"

Gosh...had a bad dream about Justin last night. Dreamed that he was cheating on me with my friend from college he had dated when I first met him. He had been down to my dorm (in my dream I still lived in the dorms, except they looked an awful lot like Clark), and left a note while I was gone about how he just didn't make it down there and then went down the hall and left a message on Amy's door telling her he had a great time that weekend and was glad to see her. I asked her what had happened and she said he was just spending the night with her, that was all. But I had been upset that he was lying and cheating on me with her. Even though I knew she was innocent.

Anyway, weird dream. And I woke up uneasy and sad about it. But today I'm chatting with him on facebook...and I shouldn't be...because I need to end it for good. Gosh ....such a fool...

Done with a "D"...

So I'm pretty much done with the boy...I'm pretty much just waiting for him to quit talking to me...maybe I should voice that first so as to speed up the process...go figure. I guess this also means that the week of Homecoming will not be happening with us. I've already taken off work, but in light of the fact, I think I will continue to have those days off and enjoy them. I'd like to say that for sure we won't hang out, as I really most definitely should avoid and ignore him, but that would be lying as women are weak when it comes to men...

To be continued...

I have my first test here in about 2 1/2 hours. It is an A&P I test, and I'm quit nervous, so I'm glad to have a few extra hours to study and will do so after I finish ranting on about my life...

Things are stressful and tense these days. If it's not the continuously tiring schedule, it's work, or it's relational drama of some sort. I hate it...because I would like to be drama free...or have less drama surrounding my life...like that ever happens the way you want it to...

Excited that my birthday is here in a few weeks and excited to see my family and spend some much needed fun time at the cabin. Always some kind of silver lining, isn't there?

Well I will update on my test results later.