Let's see, this weekend went by too fast. I love love not having anywhere to be, and to able to spend adequate time studying. Loving endocrine, and hoping it shows on my test Tuesday. Didn't do so hot on MS, and I could have done better, so need to get an "A" on this one to make up for it and get back in the game. I'm tired of my buddies that I usually get a few drinks with every once in a while. I don't mind drinking, but I'm so so sick of just being stupid and drinking. I came home Friday after clinicals and napped for an hour or two because I haven't been getting enough sleep during the week for staying up too late, which has been so worth it for certain reasons, but anyway, I didn't want any plans, I just wanted to be at home and veg out with a movie with no where to be. My friend called me to come out to their house and hang. I didn't want to, and tried to get out of it, but I felt like I should go see them b/c I so rarely do. So I went, and everyone was already drunk. And there were peeps there I'm not hugely fond of...I don't know I just felt like the non-drunk random person and it was tense and weird. I had a drink, stayed painfully for an hour or so and then came on back home. Just so tired of drinking to be drunk and stupid, not saying I do that a lot, but whenever I'm with that crowd that seems to be the goal for everyone that night, and I just don't feel like joining in. Maybe I'm a party pooper....who knows. Anyhoo...
Saturday I cleaned up things around the house and studied again...Sunday I met up with a friend I haven't seen in a while. This friend failed out our first semester of nursing school and we've still kept in touch despite that. I like her, but we rarely get anything done when she and I study together, although I made sure I got something done and did, and she did a few things. She makes me sad, because of her marriage issues. My counseling days come back to me every time she starts bringing up their issues in their family and marriage. Then dad and I studied tonight and then I messed around online and chitchatted till bed.
I'm stunned that October starts next week. I'm excited, so so excited because I love fall and when everything starts hibernating. The clothes, the weather, the colors...oh I'm in love. Makes me want to be outside more, as opposed to hot humid TN summer which makes me want to go in and avoid melting outside.
I got to thinking today that life has been pretty sweet lately. Things feel better, no they're not perfect, but they just are more exciting and I look forward to the next day and what's to come a little more. I'm glad for the changes. To not worry stupidly about Justin, to see an end in site for this degree so I can go towards stabilization, to perhaps begin on another romantic interest, to have a little less financial stress, for a time of year that I bask in, and for just hope in general of what's to come. It's nice...so so nice....
I'm in love with my Labor/Delivery clinicals. I'm very happy with my instructor, which is nice cause I can't say that for all of them. Not everyone seems willing/wanting to teach, and this lady so is, and has so much knowledge to share. And thus far I've learned more about the subject that I've learned skills for med-surg, or at least in quicker time for sure. Can't wait to head back to the nursery this week, to maybe deliver a baby(?!) and to learn more.
First off I'm random, so forgive me, but I jump the gun on a lot of things. Don't want to do that, but can I say that I'm hoping...for a certain something, to bloom and blossom and come about. I read this quote tonight that I really do believe to a certain extent, "It's the rule of life that everything you have always wanted comes the very second you stop looking for it." I kind of think this is perfect...I mean I don't want to sit and dwell on this certain thing I'm hoping for to become something more, but gosh...you know how hard that is for me...oh my gosh so hard....
Here's to hoping...
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