The Last few days have not been great at work, mainly staff wise of all things. I'm going to go ahead and say it, I don't make friends easily and I really don't like a lot of people. That seems incredulous coming from someone getting into nursing, but I just get too overwhelmed with all the different personalities and it takes a while for me to really call someone a friend, if I even ever get to that point with them. It's a weakness, and one I see advantages in too, at least it's a good way to keep boundaries. What this has to do with my work deal is my fellow employees are becoming friends, one in particular. I look up to her and she's like a second momma to me while I'm here away from my real momma, and in some ways more mommyish then my momma is sometimes, at least in the soothing cuddle you when you feel bad way. Another thing I'd like to mention that I hate is threesome friends. There are so many dynamics to people and personalities all hanging around each other and it's so much more complicated than we give it credit for. Everybody's ego in some way, gets in the way. But anyway, a little of the threesome, leave out Mary and make her do everything was going on yesterday, and I said something and it ended up making everyone mad instead of clearing the air and awareness. Sucks, cause I hate confrontation anyway and when it backfires, it's twice as painful, especially since I avoid saying anything at all costs most of the time. Anyway...so it made the day fairly painful to get through...
Ok well Ryan just walked in more in a bit...
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