Sometimes it's so hard to know when you've gone too far, or to know when to hold back. I find that it doesn't matter what I do sometimes, I will take something too far, get too emotional, or put too much in before I've taken a moment to be patient, pull the reigns in, and chill. It comes with being eager, it's not done (at least in my situations) because I'm anxious, or intense, it comes from being assured of what I know I feel about something or want to do and excitement. Anyway....it's just hard to know when to slow down, to chill. And then when you do realize it's that time, to just...wait. To not think about it, or let it eat at you because you're fretting over it, worrying you've already gone too far or made it worse. Waiting for an answer or outcome...it just drives you crazy. I am referring to a certain situation, but I'm going to play the vague card for now. But just thinking about a lot tonight.
My test today was not so good. I've spent a lot of time doing other things the last few nights, and I have studied too, but I obviously didn't study enough. Then again nothing could have fully prepared me for the mess of a test it was today. Everything was just so vague and the questions were not good. I swear they're truly are trying to weed us out this semester. I've been messing with my grades all afternoon trying to figure out the best scenarios based on how I feel I might have done today. I guess at this point, I'm begging and praying that I made an 80 at all. We will see...
Ate dinner with the guys tonight. It was good to see Ryan, back from his trip with his international students he teaches they had the last four or five days for Fall break. Derek and Fultz too...I needed a fun hang out and chat, eat dinner night.
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