So Sunday I got back from Justin's and felt that things were sad and depressing. I think at that time because I knew my adventure was over and that I was leaving him were the culprits. But then I get back and by yesterday we still had not had a decent conversation about the weekend, which was supposed to give us some time together, our first since we used to be in school together. I was starting to freak out some, thinking maybe he was bothered by something that happened over the weekend and he was avoiding me, but after finally giving in and calling him last night I asked him these things and he was sorry that the communication was getting crossed like that. He's been busy all week, doing lots of stuff at work meeting wise and building something for the senior minister's sermon Sunday. He's also had some youth group issues and such, so I feel kind of foolish for letting myself get carried away, something I thought I would never do in a relationship.
Anyway, I'm breathing easy again and feel so much better about things, and even dreamed easier calmer dreams last night. Funny how so much of what we're worried or thinking about affects our sleep and dreams, and it was beginning to give me depressing, rejecting dreams.
I dread work the next two days. I shouldn't because it's not like I'm there that long, but I just want to be lazy and want to have time off, since this whole break I've going almost full speed doing something without real lazy nothing days to rest yet. Hoping this semester doesn't kill me.
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