Something to talk about...

Nothing huge to report. My schedule is still crazy, but I have made efforts to make it a little lighter by dropping my Thursday work day after this week. This should give me another night to study/get homework done or just be still for a minute. I know if I make it through this semester I will have accomplished much, for me anyways, not being a great student and never having had such a difficult schedule with such hard classes. On a happy note I still have an "A" in Anatomy if you drop one of my quiz grades (which will be dropped in the end if I keep making "100's" [let's hope!]).

I love in some ways when life is busy like this. I am a person that desires to have free time...but when they get it, I don't know how to use it efficiently and I end up getting bored and depressed. So in a lot of ways, this is all really good for me. On a sad note it allows for me to avoid how much I feel about things sometimes, like Justin, or the "stuck" feeling that I get sometimes when I realize I'm stuck and can't get out or move from the area of my life I'm in. Never a good thing to completely avoid how you're feeling and often leads to melt downs, but for now...I'm going with it.

Nothing much going on with me and Justin. We're both super excited about him coming down in February for Homecoming, but still don't talk to him on the phone as much as I'd like and I still (I know, I know when I say this whoever, if anyone, maybe only Julia, reads this they will shake their head and say "tsk, tsk") sometimes have to convince myself though he tells me otherwise, that he's not just purely keeping this going the way it is to fulfill petty needs. I pray about it, about us, or someone else. I'm done with choosing for God, due to past experience and fully allowing God to choose for me. I mean I know I'm young, but I don't want to be married late in life...I'm not looking to just up and get married for the heck of it either....enough...I don't care enough to try to explain it, and the best I'm doing right now only sounds like the typical reasons. Only reason I got onto that topic would be because a friend and I were discussing people engaged and having babies tonight at dinner.

But anyway, I'm hanging in there. I have some fun things coming up in the near future if I can just hold out for a few weeks...

Until a more interesting thought comes along....