So I begin....again

I haven't blogged in a long time. I used to have Xanga before the facebook and myspace days, but quit after I realized that a blog would not give me answers to then very dawning questions...not to mention that I couldn't figure out how to use the thing the way I wanted after they did an update. So now after a friend has convinced me that I should get back into the blog scene, I do somewhat excited to have a place to express myself verbally again.

I feel as if I am beginning a time of change again, but one I'm not so nervous about as I have been in the past with other change periods. I'm starting classes to a whole new degree, which is thrilling to say the least. I never thought I would actually be involved in the medical field, although I remember being younger and thinking that really cool, smart people got lucky enough to work in medicine. I know I'm not working towards being a doctor or anything, but I think that where I am going so far will be fascinating and exciting and I think that if I have opportunities arise where I might move further into the career path I will.

At this point, I'm trying to get completely on my own feet without my parents sort of right behind me as they have been, and don't get me wrong, I'm an independent person and I don't need my parents for my every move, however, we seem to go through this back and forth motion of "apron string" pulling and I think it would do us both good if the sooner I can get finished with schooling, the sooner the strings are completely cut and I think we'll both enjoy each other even more, though we have come to a good place and good relationship terms already.

I'm ready to find love and for it to stick. I've had a few run throughs here and there and currently I'm trying to find out if I have found love or if it's just another person and another step towards that "one". We will see...as my dad constantly reminds me, though it causes hurt, every new experience brings understanding and learning and so I keep this in mind as I go...

Alrighty, well enough for now, I'm off to the bank and then to the store to pick up supplies for chicken fajitas. A friend and I are cooking together tonight and then maybe I can convince him to do something fun...hoping that means watch a movie or something just to keep us from boredom or me thinking about the guy that I'm not sure about...